Ketamine for Breakfast

Now look here, in the house opposite Black gate posts with a concrete frog squatting on top of it Through the hallway Ancient wallpaper, nicotine gold Up the stairs, rickety Loaded with history Here, in the top flat Flowers on the windowsill Little breeze fluttering the petals as they stare out At the city streets Gemma is awake What woke her? Open eyes, street lights float slowly through broken blinds She watches as the light plays across the tattered carpet And she holds herself tight in the room's half darkness It's cold She wedges her hands underneath her armpits It's 04: 18 And Gemma's thinking Before I was a adult I was a little wreck Peddling whatever I could get my grubby mitts on Ketamine for beakfast Bad girls were drinking with I gave 'em puppy dog eyes for the acid on their fingertips Heads in the basement Lips without faces Getting faced in, half-baked in a bakery Eating pastries Desperate for a body who could save me But I never really wondered what they gave me Always wanted something else Sweating in the door queue Spittin' like a villain in the pantomime old shoes Bad teeth Drinking in the rain with my ghost Sitting in the back of the class, comatose Uh, feelings on my back in the dark Hold me close But you never held I did some things I swore I'd never 'Til that night you tried to kill me Run me down with your car in the snow I didn't realize I thought you would go Every day I live lives in the day I wake up in My dreams are all screaming "Oh fuck!" But I'm fine now Something remains, it's still pulling me Yeah my future is bright but my past tryna ruin me Tried to change it but I know If you're good to me I will let you go Tried to fight it but I'm sure If you're bad to me, I will like you more I saw some things when I was young That made me who I would become I feel them with me everyday 'Cause if you try and run away They run beside you place for place Trip you up and drag your face Freedom out of every waste They chancing every bit of taste Heart is sprayed up with the names Of all my friends who lost their way Doesn't change it all remains It takes my strength and gives me shame All I want is someone great To make me everything I ain't But the only ones for me Are the ones that shouldn't be Even though I'm doing good I'm working hard, my work is strong Might be fun just for a while To go back to where my hurt is from Rinse myself through emptiness And push my body close to Anybody who can recognize the presence of my ghost Tried to change it but I know If you're good to me I will let you go Tried to fight it but I'm sure If you're bad to me I will like you more Tried to change it but I know If you're good to me I will let you go Tried to fight it but I'm sure If you're bad to me I will like you more